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Tue, 27 Jun 2006 16:33:07 GMT

NEW JOURNAL BITCHESS!!!!!

stalk/add me here: martyrdom_of_me

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 02:22:48 GMT

YAY I'M FILLING THIS OUT BECAUSE I'M SO EFFING BORED AND HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO..WOOOo!!!

1. Name someone with the same birthday as you.
mary holmberg......... and my ex bf gerard.. yeah YOU GO GERARD! ..you asshole.

2. Where was your first kiss?
HECKSHER PARK in front of a TREE and it was really awkward and we were hiding in front of the tree to get away from deirdre o'sullivan but she actually hid in a bush and saw everything; defeating the purpose of my life and everything i stand for.

3. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property?
oops.. cristina & i broke some guys lawn ortament of A DEER.. it was cute, but it was staring at us. cr33py.

4. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
yeah.... like a lot. i'm violent. LOVE ME.

5. Have you ever sung in front of a large number of people?
FUCK no.

6. What's the first thing you notice about the preferred sex?
their eyebrows

7. What really turns you on?
EYEBROWZ NIGGA

8. What do you order at Starbucks?
uhh death

9. What is your biggest mistake?
not hitting rachel hellman with my car

10. Ever hurt yourself on purpose?
hmm chuckle chuckle

11. Say something totally random about you.
i'm filling out A SURVERY THAT NO ONE WILL READ HAHAHA YEZZ

12. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
rachel bilson (summer from the oc), catherine zeta jones (after i cut my hair aka when i was bald from locks of love), umm i got angelina jolie from a blinding 98 year old woman (that was the best day of my life) i've gotten some grll from american idol (never watched that once in my life), and drew barrymore (wtf)

13. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
FUCK YEAH I DO

14. Did you have braces?
nevaaa and if i did i would remove them with a fork like my brother did, it looked fun

15. Are you comfortable with your height?
i guess, i wish i was taller actually. like a giraffe. so i could hang out in trees.

16. What is the most romantic thing someone of the preferred sex has done for you?
uumm I DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT IT cause we're broken up and talking about him makes me want to choke a small five year old child or dance through a field of tall grass at dawn

17. When do you know it's love?
WHEN I FUCKEN SAY IT'S LOVE >:o

18. Do you speak any other languages?
pig latin, A LITTLE GERMAN (in the process of learning) and gibberish (fuck you, that's a real language)

19. Have you ever been to a tanning salon?
yes i've been to the cancer box. i was even PALER when i got out, so i say NO to skin cancer these days. (sorry mackenzie BOWER)

20. What magazines do you read?
vogue, allure, all the tabloids, american girl mwhaaha

21. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
yeah who the shit hasn't? o. the poor.. LOL

22. Has anyone you were really close with passed away?
yeah thanks for the kind hearted question

23. Do you watch MTV?
do i slowly put a loaded shot-gun against my temple and squeeze the trigger?

24. What's something that really annoys you?
the fact that NO ONE will EVER READ THIS

25. What's something you really like?
chocolate.. and babies.. chocolate covered babies......

26. Do you like Michael Jackson?
so much i plotted out his death before i took this

27. Can you dance?
yah I SHOWED J-LO HOW TO GET DOWNNNNNNNN

28. What's the latest you have ever stayed up?
four days, no joke.

29. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
yes when i drove up a tree with melissa carter held captive in the passenger's seat.. all because i was too busy waving to james and not paying attention to the road haaaha MY B!

30. Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
yes when an 8 foot tall mirror fell on my head and broke all over MA BODDAY

31. Do you actually read these when other people fill them out?
ahha FUCK NO

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 14:09:17 GMT

you don't want to date me.
and more importantly
i don't want to date you.

suuuuuuccckkk iiitttttttt.

Sat, 03 Jun 2006 16:55:35 GMT

art is like a tornado through my room, but I don't care because I will live in filfth for what I love..

only problem is whenever Scott looks at my paint-covered carpet, I know he dies a little on the inside.

okay so I'm graduating in like ten minutes and I really just want to hide in my locker and live there forever with mr. bolough.

Reality really hit me hard in the face. Fucking bitch, reality. Fuck you.

I don't want to leave my bubble that is CSH and my entire life since moving here that's all I wanted to do. How ironic, didn't elton john write a song about this.

Note:I am not cool enough for livejournal.com
and crazy jewish men love to explain their epilepsy problems to me at eckerd's.

shhhhhh

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 23:48:15 GMT

but I don't even remember adding Jude Law on myspace... ?

ha ha haaa okay so i went to key west and i didn't get the slightest bit tan because i'm that goth.. seriously, i make the sun go away. true story. only one part of my arm got tan and it probably faded by now.

awesome how my grandma has metal hips. everytime she walked through one of those security-box-things at the airport, a massive alarm would go off and she'd have to get strip searched on the spot by men in uniform who thought she was a 90 year old terrorist. thank you grandma for distracting them while i quietly snuck 500 lighters over the border.

people in airplanes are retarded. i sat next to this older spanish woman because i'm not allowed to sit near my family on planes and the entire time she was praying the rosary and holding her breath everytime we hit turbulance. she kept leaning over me to look out the window.. but i had the window seat.. seriously, like LAY THE FUCK OFF MAH WINDOW. i was two steps away from slipping vics into her pepsi and stealing her peanuts. and i don't even like peanuts.

well shiiiiiiiiiihhhhhh. i passed mah drug TEST, no doubt.

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 19:12:33 GMT

i just found out that my aunt and her boyfriend of like 18 months
met on the interweb

lolololololol

& today, janice made me get a drug test.
because i'm "too EMOTIONAL" to be "NORMAL"
thanks mom.

she must've felt bad, because afterwards she gave me her target gift certificate of like, 2 dollars.
which only means one thing.
matching throw pillows

nigga

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 07:22:05 GMT

i've been working on two different paintings for months and months and months and months. i finally finished both. and i'm not happy with either. i'm never content with any artwork i produce. what's the point? tell me WHAT is the point!?!? i NEED to KNOW. hey, if i had NO HANDS i wouldn't be in the POSITION of pure and utter FRUSTRATION MADNESS. i am like about to cut almost all of my fingers off and move off of the continent and become a GYPSY. forever! end of story.

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 13:17:20 GMT

hey highschool.
what's up
nice to see you
not.

i haven't been to school in days. HAHA!

is there anything as awful as having both of your feet fall asleep at the same time?

related, i love being pale (read: chalk-white) and all, but i hate when my hands and feet get cold because they turn a subtle shade of blue. it's rather disconcerting. and yes this entry is pointless.

like my future! college is dumb. like seriously why is my guidance counselor a stupid shit bag. it's distressing to my little, failed attempt at life.
and other than the fact my mom gave me life, she's pretty much useless. welll at least my art portfolio is very very strong. too bad art school is for white kids. shiiiiiiiiiihhhhhh i know what i wanna be now, and it aint got nothin' to do wif art. *sigh* wwjg2c??? Where Would Jesus Go to College?

peter and i were talking and came to the conclusion that i am going to be alone forever. and according to lauren and peter combined, i am a BOY in MY HEAD. that is why i'm unattractive and strange. hahaha. i'm just not interested in BOYS. i am interested in MEN. or, maybe the occasional MANBOY given the certain circumstances.. i like a good manboy with a good sense of humor. so don't pull on mah hand boi you aint mah man boi.

lololol in any event i decided i'm gonna go on mad datez
and pay for them and be like..
i am paying for you how does that make you feel?
uncomfortable?
and then if it doesn't i will be like
nevermind, boi.
pay. yourself.

ugh lowercase a's and y's are pretty much the stupidest looking letters that you could attempt to make aesthetically pleasing ever.
fuck them

p.s. valentine's day is lame. i think i'll go watch love actually now.. by myself.. in the corner.. WITH MY MOM!

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 22:12:39 GMT

today, i found a $20 dollar bill on the wet sidewalk and it put me in a such a good mood, it's utterly ridiculous. i guess i feel lucky, lately. i passed my math regents, so that means i graduate cshhs; score! and here is a page about $20 bills made by someone with too much time on their hands.

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 17:54:48 GMT

i've officially watched a 24 hour christmas story for 24 hours.

i love how my family sings happy birthday to jesus on christmas and light candles on "his" birthday cake and all that jazz. because that's not weird. because jesus was even born on decemeber 25th and this wasn't originally a pagan holiday or anything..

ANYWAY, i must say i recieved the canon digital rebel and i am the luckiest, happiest, girl alive. *frolicks away into fading sunset, clicking heels together* but still there's something about this christmas

that feels nothing like christmas at all.

at least i can say i'm proud of myself for making peter the best mix tape including:

Sufjan Stevens - O Holy Night
Belle & Sebastian - O Come, O Come Emmanuel
Pedro the Lion - I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day
Weezer - The Christmas Song
Yo La Tengo - It's Christmas Time
Bright Eyes - Blue Christmas
Death Cab for Cutie - Christmas (Baby Please Come Home)
Stars - Fairytale of New York
Low - Just Like Christmas
Jessica and Ashlee Simpson(HAHAsghjklMWAHAAAHA)- The Little Drummer Boy
MxPx - Christmas Day
The Dismemberment Plan - This Christmas
The Raveonettes - The Christmas Song
The Long Winters - Christmas With You is the Best

i am amazing. OH, and the wu tang quote of the day is; "don't want it if it ain't no slut... bitch"
haaaaahahahahaha seriously, what is going on with these dudes?

i am a very angry girl.

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 20:10:16 GMT

who the fuck puts a needle in a coat at max & gino's? who does that!?

honestly, if someone posted the person's name and address on my livejournal.. i would go to their house and set them on fire. right after i cut all their fingers off.

oh also.. apparently you cant say "merry christmas" anymore because it isn't politically correct, so instead i am just going to say "fuck you" to everyone.

fuck you, motherfuckers. fuck.

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 16:33:21 GMT

ARRR!

how many of you assholes am I even going to know in ten, even five, years?

i'm grounded, like, doubly grounded, for probably the next 20 years of my life so I'm definitely missing at least two really good parties and am way pissed that someone rudely jacked hopie's cell phone. WHEN I FIND YOU IMA CUT YOU.

i hope i can get my life (life = grades, parents, various addictions, sleep habits, applications) under control because I am tired of canceling plan after plan after plan after plan after plan after plan after plan after plan because I keep fucking things up and fucking things up and fucking things up and fucking things up and fucking things up.

and screw you college, you can go to hell.

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 07:48:25 GMT

Are you straight, gay, or bisexual?: straight

How many people have you kissed in your life?: wow i don't even know hahaha i guess that makes me a slut
In any way: most of them.. fuck..
romantically: probably like only three, i really don't know.

Have you ever made out with a member of the same sex?: nope

How many people have you dated this past year?: one

Do you kiss on the first date?: wtf.. it depends on the whole situation, person, feeling of it all.

Would you ever pay someone for sex?: HAHAHAHAH do i looook like my mother

Would you ever let someone pay you for sex?: pay me with what? and no.

Do you keep your eyes open when you kiss?: no... once i opened them though and he did too at the same time then i started laughing and it got really awkward and stupid.

Do you think you've met the person you'll spend the rest of your life with?: um no i'm like 12, but okay.

Have you ever regretted a hook-up?: the ones i remembered ;) JUST KIDDDING no i have not

Would you date or marry someone if your parents or friends didn't accept them?: yeah wtf marriage is about love.. and i wouldn't care if my gold-digging parent didn't accept them. when you marry someone you're marrying them, not other people's concept of them.

Would you kiss someone if you didn't love them?: obviously.

Are you always horny?: um no.. what the hell

What is your kissing pet peeve?: idk. thinking about someone else who you actually care about while you're kissing a different person making it cheap and vile AND GOD DAMMIT I HATE BOYS

Have you ever given anyone a bath?: yeah. my little sister when she was like one. ..sicko.

Have you ever had a hard time getting over someone?: haha that's quite a hilarious question. fuck you.

What do you notice first about guys? the way they smile

Are you friends with your ex?: L M A O.

Have you ever cheated on someone?: hell no, that's gross. though my goal in life is to be on jerry springer. or maury. and oprah.. oprah's the man.

Have you ever been cheated on?: haha probably.. idk, why would they admit to it.

What's the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for you?: aw the song peter wrote for mee :)

What do you look for in your ideal mate?: idk open-mindedness (is that even a word?) and funnyyy. OH AND THEY HAVE TO HAVE GOOD EYEBROWS.

Biggest Turn-ons: eh idk personality, please be humorous. artists, boys who write. if they play the guitar or trumpet or something, that's pretty hot.

Turn-offs: if they remind me of something i don't like, selfishness, or if they're mean, oh and i hate immature guys who act retarded and give shitty impressions of dave chappelle and then laugh their asses off at their own failed attempt of being humorous. ah yes, i tip my hat to you, fine warriors of wit.

Do you get jealous of your boyfriends/girlfriends other exes: not gonna lie.. it's a waste of time, but yes indeed i am a jealous piece of shit

Morals/Beliefs

What religion are you?: good question
Do you got to church regularly?: janice forces me every sunday. it's not that bad. they actually have altar girls now and the sermons on the end of the world descending within the next couple of years are fucking hilarious. go jesus!
Do you believe in God?: yes i do
Satan?: i believe in evil as a force, not like some little red man with a pitchfork waiting for me under a bridge or something
Angels?: um..sure why not.
Heaven?: it's a nice theory, i'm not sure.. i'm too young to be able to grasp the whole after-life idea right now.
Are you a virgin?: yes
What do you think of abortion?: anything that stops a beating heart is murder. so, i think abortion is immoral and extremely sad. save the babiess
Suicide?: it's not the only way out.. i feel sorry for those tortured souls driven to it though.
War?: a fancy word for terrorism. obviously, i'm anti-war.
Pop music?: i fucking love kelly clarkson, i won't deny it. :(

Currently

What are you wearing?: clothes
Who are you talking to?: myself..
How is the weather?: really foggy, i love it.
What are you listening to?: siouxsie and the banshees - "are you still dying darling"
What/Who are you thinking about?: college, how i really want to go to sva. how i won't care either way, but i may set fire to their campus.
What are you eating/drinking?: nada.
What are you looking forward to?: sleep, wherever that may be.
What are you dreading?: mrs. hannity.
How are you feeling?: like shit
How is your hair?: my signature side pony-tail.. yes i am that cool right now what cna i say
What time is it?: 2:35 AM
What are you annoyed by?: anyone who talks to me right now. i will bite your fucking head off.

When Was The Last Time You...

Burped?: wtf die
Kissed?: last saturday
Had sex?: haha never
Went to the movies?: tonight
went out to eat?: tonight as well yeah!
Cried?: today actually (shh) but it was because i thought i lost something very important, i found it in my washing machine actually.
Got dumped?: hahaha at like 2 am in the summer on the phone when i had no electricity yayy!
Dumped someone?: i don't rememberr
Threw up?: gross at brittany's, but chris guida is the nicest human ever and helped me
Went skiing/snowboarding?: ew fuck skiing
Went for a walk?: yesterday morning
Ate ice cream?: idk
Got into a fight? um i rarely ever get into fights, if i do i give in almost automatically and apologize even if i didn't do anything wrong

Are You

insecure?: everyone's a little insecure sometimes, it comes along with the whole being a weird teenager thing.
interesting: HAHAHAHAHAH oh my funny you should ask..
random?: at times
hungry?: nah
moody?: i'm a girl wtf kind of question is that
hardworking?: depends on what i'm working on, but most likely no
organized?: HAHAH hell no
healthy?: not one bit.
attractive?: OH YEZZ YOU KNOW YOU WANNA HIT IT
responsible?: absolutely not
obsessed?: with..what..?
angry?: no anger is a waste of an emotion
sad?: not in general!?
happy?: there's much to be happy about
hyper?: usually
talkative?: depends

Who do you want to

Kill?: paris hilton, but she's gonna die soon anyway of std's so i'll just let her aids slowly kill her
Kiss?: no one
Slap?: mr.nepo
Look like?: brittany cause she's a hottiee OOO LA LAA

Random Questions

Coke or Pepsi?: they both suck
What do you collect?: polaroids, bumper stickers i've ripped off random cars, bob dylan stuff.
Number of cds you own?: i can't even count that high
Number of scars on my body?: the one on my upper thigh cause when i was little i walked into a mirror and it crashed on my head and a piece of glass went straight into my thigh and i have like harry potter's scar on my fucking UPPER THIGH ..honestly who does that? ..other than me
What are your bad habits?: smoking, drinking.. denying how i really feel and hiding emotions sometimes.

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 01:40:07 GMT

William Hung jogged by me in Central Park, Sunday morning. He was listening to an old-school tape player and yes, his teeth really are that jacked up in real life. I watched him slowly fade into the sunset and thought, "Ah, there goes William Hung and his fifteen minutes." Cait and I agree that fame is a bitch.

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 03:04:40 GMT

SAT's in two weeks? I've yet to open a review book?

I want to tattoo vulgarities in caps accross my chest, in big bold letters FUCKED.

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 19:01:53 GMT

i totally forgot i had one of these :/

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 15:48:29 GMT

Something has manifested itself inside of me and continues to grow, using up my immune system to fuel its evil birth. I predict it should explode from my chest sometime near next month and then proceed to eat my family and dog.